HELLO
The song.
Ann-Marie De Silva
aka AMRIE!
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I just realised that I've never let anyone in aussie see my blog. I remember someone said they wanted to see it but i refused to give them the link..absolutely refused! Even I dont know why I did that. Maybe its because this is something I share with all my real true friends, like the ones in singapore? hmmm...sometimes even I dont understand myself. Come to think of it, I havent actually met anyone here in aussie qualified to be called 'a true friend'. No one is ever 'always there for me' and no one actually understands how I really feel under my sometimes fake smiles and laughs. Sometimes I feel so lonely, like no one bothers to understand me or even care about me. This feels totally new to me, I never felt like this in my life, I never felt like I was an outcast and that I was all alone. Thats why I m finding it so hard I guess. I dont want to make mistakes I'll regret, thats why I dont trust anyone and never let them know what I really think and feel.
right this moment, I have my mother screaming and shouting at me for not helping my dad wash his plate after dinner. and saying how about 6 moths ago I didnt let her put her stuff in my bag. well i dont give a fuck mum! face it! i m not evn listening hahaha. my music is like blasting away. I m at a point of my life where i dont care what she wants to say to me or anything anymore cuz I dont want her to continue to be the cause of my fucking mood swings and shit. I seriously hate her guts and i wanna kill her. and she keeps saying 'one day I m gonna move out of here and all you lazy bums can live here by yourself!' well fuck you mum, I m not gonna be living with you in 2 years. and I know I wont miss her cuz I dont really have any good memories with her. Shes always picking a fight with me. well I so wanna say to her "who cares? I DONT CARE!"
todai i finally decided to update my blog. arent u guys proud of me? hahahaha. neways. i think i m really getting dumber and dumber as the days go by. like last week, i failed my acounting test. this week i failed my chemistry test. well actually i failed it todai. neways. i m getting so tired of school now. its so boring and i m soo over it already. i hate catching the train when its packed! like this morning it was so packed. and the fat lay who really smelled bad was standing next to me again!! and she fell on me and this other guy and i screamed. hahaha! ok i m gettin tired.